Hi Folks

Oke, deleted an former entry, I was to frustated when I wrote it and I kind off harmed people and tolded things wich weren't true. Well they where true but not that bad as I described them. I do are fed up with the kids an bit, pubers are never happy, or you are too less an father or you are to much. Had an argument with 3e yesterday, about the time she spends on internet again. She really does spend too much time there, like 11 hours on sunday and monday together, and I don't know today, cause I fell asleep on the couch, but I guess it will be at least three hours, she went on at 20.30 and knowing her she stayd one untill she wnet to bed wich woulds be around 23.00, and I'm sure she was on this afternoon. I jusat wanted to warn her for that, but had an bad mood (again) and started the wrong way and she had ab abswer back wich I didn't have an answer for and that frustated me and that was the start of an bit of an fight, wich she won off course since I started wrong. Sended her an email to explain what I really wanted to tell, heard an thing on the radio about internet addictions and she has an lot off symptoms, worries me. And as said in my deleted entry, I can't be nice to her always, don't want too anymore, it kind off looks to me the nicer I am they more distance she takes, and if i'm angry with her she also takes distance so I'm now just gonna do what I like.
L10 is getting more exam-stress. Got an call from her school that she has to finish her scholl project.Turned out half of her class didn't finish it in time. Wonder what she will do with it. I think she still isn't sure what she want to do later and what school she wants to go too, she now wants to study visual communications, but she hasn't done anything anymore to do something with it, and I have the feeling that's also not really what she wants. Her teacher adviced us to get the jobbook from the libary and just write down wich jobs we think could be something for her and then discuss them with her. Maybe w'll find out that way.Time is getting short now. I think she will be fine in the end though, she always is ^_~. Our new car turnes out to cost more money then we expected, something with the repairs went wrong and when we drove it afterwards we broke more in the engine. So now I've ordered about an dozen new parts for it, and then when it's fiished we have about an new engine in it. Still the parts aren't expensive and we are still spending  less money on it then we got back from the van, so all in all nothing to worrie. The other car has been in the garage an lot lately as well, all small things wich had to do with the fact it uses LPG to drive on. ind off not have the car in the garage for many km, so everything was dirty in it and it doesn't drive nicely then ^_~. It does now, wich is very nice. We have driven that car in the last 15 months from 130.000 km to 170.000 km, wich is an lot, we won the car 18 months now, but it hasen't been driving for 3 months because the gearbox broke down and we had to save to get that fixed ( 1.000 euro's, and we just had bought the car) Normally Bas fixes these things but he can't ahndle the LPG so we have to take this car to an real garage mostly. It has been in there 3 times in the last two months, but now it all is well. At leats for the crack in the fornt window, we still have to get that fixed. But the good news is that we save an 100 euro's every month we drive it cuase LPG is much less expensive then gasoline. The money thing is still soemthing wich frustates me as well, mar business is going better but still not as good as we thought and it turnes out we have been spending more moneu for year then we got in. Not anymore though, but well you can figure it out. It's frustating you can't give the kids what they want sometimes, I would loive to take 3e and l10 shopping for clothes or something. I'm also worried about l10 going to life on het own, we have no money to help her,we wanted to get her some new furniture and stuff, but I can't see how, ah well w'll find an way. Have been weorking much lately, came home lats night at 20.00 and had to get out of bed this morning at 2.30, that was not much sleep, and the kids woikle me up when the got to bed yesterday ( they can't help it) so I had an really hard day today, also since I had to work untill 18.30. Therefor I'm gonna go to bed now.

Bye
dodo

Hi Dodo, Sorry your going through that :( I hope you guys work it out. Young kids can be tough to deal with at times. I really hope that it works out soon, and everything is solved.
Today I am not sure about my page...A friend told me my handwriting is too big for the page? Do you agree? Let me know how you think about it??? I hope you feel better today Dodo...xxx -ohhh and thanks for the happy birthdayyyy! hehe